All hope is not lost

You had a dream this morning – the part you remembered is Daddy holding Kade and we were all walking away from you. You said I wrote a note to you that said “all hope is lost”. And you were sitting with a teenager named Chris. You said we didn’t know where you were. That was the end of the dream, and you couldn’t remember what happened in the beginning of the dream.

In real life, I prayed for you. Then we talked about how to put on the armor of God, discern where our dreams come from by measuring them against the truth of the Word of God. You prayed yourself too, repeating after me. We talked about how Jesus wins every battle, and already trampled the enemy who is a footstool to Him. We rebuked the devil together in Jesus’ name. We discussed the Second Coming and what that means for us, and also the power we have already in the Holy Spirit.

You know the Fruits of the Spirit, and how God produces these things in us. You know the Armor of God too, you recited them yourself. Now you have practiced how to sharpen your sword, and use it.

You learned how to fight the enemy head on and win.

I am not glad the enemy attached your dream, but I am incredibly grateful God turns all things to good and you’re learning how to WIN at this young age of not even 5 years old. The Lord filled you with hope and joy because you took your concerns to Him who controls and Authors all things. And no, my little man, my world-changer, my firstborn, all hope is not lost. God is the beginning of hope. And all you have to do is pray. I love you. One day you’ll read these posts and know how and why God built you into a mighty warrior.

Practice makes perfect

Micah, you had an epic meltdown… One of those that happens from mid-sleep. It’s been a long time since I’ve seen this from you, which used to be a regular occurance (once or twice weekly).

It took you about 45 minutes to wind down. Poor guy. But once you did, we could revert to some healthy habits we’ve built along the past almost 5 years:

– Visualizations – tonight was the Creation story

– massage with aromatherapy – a spicy fall blend fit the ticket

– prayer – for thanksgiving and self-control, and the humility to sincerely apologize to daddy for losing control of your body

– affirmations and snuggling – We talked about your purpose and place in this world. We discussed your importance and significance in this family. 

– strategies for a different response – We discussed healthy ways to get out of your primitive brain to get back to your problem solving hero brain. We agreed deep breaths are a good way to do that. 

In essence, we went “coopering” together tonight.

You are going to have some healthy go-to’s as God keeps building more and more stores of self-control in you. Every human has a bent. You have to attack them head on with the opposite quality. That’s what we do. That’s why we do what we do. When you’re a man, perhaps a father, you’ll see this pattern, and you’ll repeat it for your children. 

I thank the Lord for you. You patiently put on our training wheels as parents, and you’re exactly how I love you: just you.

You are a future leader, a man who creates a legacy for Christ, a protector, a lover of fairness, a compassionate loving kind person. You have a destiny and you keep your eyes fixed on your goals with unwavering determination. You are Micah. Always our first born. Always the biggest brother. Thank you for being you. 

When I have a thought

“Mommy, did you know when you have a thought how it just appears in your brain and then it can come out of your mouth? I just knew that could happen.”

This is what you said to me tonight at 9:15pm. You’re one smart cookie. We are listening to music in the car and you chime in out of the blue. Too cute! You got some new shorts and shirts because you outgrew your old ones and you’re getting a booster seat on Monday! I feel like you’re a little boy and not a toddler anymore. To so many things you say “I can handle it”, or “trust me.” 

You take excellent care of Kade and I’m proud of how your learning and growing first in character but also school. For example, in character, I notice when you dial yourself back, practice generosity, offer apologies of your own initiative if you hurt someone, accept an outcome you dislike, offer spontaneous prayer to God, and use your words to express your feelings. Character development is something we will work on your whole life, but these glimmers of right thinking and a right heart fill you with life, so I will point them out to you and keep encouraging and correcting you along the way.

You got a new pet hamster this week and you named him Cypress. He’s a White Russian dwarf hamster. To be really honest I think I wanted him as much as you did! Daddy was awesome for saying yes to this new responsibility! You’re doing great during your training sessions with him too, being nice and calm and patient. This is good for you!

You know the Ten Commandments now and the Pledge of Allegiance. You’re supposed to stand in front of a big crowd of people with your class and say the pledge of allegiance. I hope you stand still, because right now you’re spinning and twirling and jumping even though I’m reminding you to stand up tall. Still, your class is doing great! I’m proud of you and your friends Emily, Hudson and Joey!


‘If I could roll you up into a ball and eat you like icecream I would. You’re so cute and delicious.’ – me 
‘But there’s bones under mah skin… You’re kidding right?’ – Micah
‘Yea I’m kidding I wouldn’t eat you. You’re just so cute’ – me
‘No one should ever kit. Kit means kidding.’ – Micah